December 21, 2009 01:21:37
Posted By Opening the Heart
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The Opening the Heart workshop has been home to me for the past 18 years. I found it at a time in my life when change was happening in me, ready or not. I was falling in love and it felt like it might do me in. I had built an emotional fortress around my heart that was sturdy and effective. This fortress was in response to sustaining a number of major losses all in a row. I felt like I couldn't come up for air before another loss knocked the wind out of me. My fortress was an attempt to protect me from the unknown, and from the unbearable pain of losing yet another loved one. No one could get past my inner protection without permission and I liked it that way. I felt safe in my self-sufficiency and misunderstood it as independence. At my first Opening the Heart workshop in 1990 one of the facilitators said these words to me: "The heart is a package deal. When it closes, it stops the flow. When your heart is closed, you are closed to all of life. Nothing can come in, and nothing can get out." Something in me stirred. I felt busted. My cover was about to be blown from the inside out. My fear was palpable, and right on the other side of that was the longing for and the possibility of deep connection with the beautiful, human souls an arm's reach away from me. My heart made up its own mind, and my soft, human body followed. Out tumbled so many tears, so many years of holding in, holding on. I hadn't met myself in that place. It was new to me to lower the drawbridge and let love in. Donna
Thank you Donna for this inspiring story.
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